No move... at least not yet.

Sooooooo... after some thinking and some prodding of others minds and some input... we've decided to moving off for a few more months. Mom needs some dental work, I need a car, we need money to move and with the others coming first I don't think we can do the move.

I think I'm okay with that. I don't feel stressed about saving the money to get the hell out of dodge. We'll be okay.

Sometimes I wish I had a little more positive support but hey... we can't all be those people. I, myself, have been known to be a little negative sometimes. Probably more so on myself than anyone but non-the-less I still can have the negative outpour.

Anyway... I'm a little more at ease. I asked for some help with getting a car... but haven't had a definite answer on that sooo I gave up. I'll use my tax returns to get a car. I'll be fine.

Positive things happen to positive people.

Remember that.

Life is full of hardships, mountains to climb, rivers to cross (sometimes it looks like an ocean), but it can be overcome. It can. I refuse to believe otherwise. :)

Today might not be so bad after all.

Today sucks.

Today definitely sucks. So in October I totaled my car... :( Lame I know. Through this whole process I've let everything take its course. My primary insurance paid a portion towards my loan and my GAP insurance paid a portion... the remaining amount is mine to pay and we've gotten things figured out to where I'd be able to pay it off.

I still don't have a car which blows.

Today I was going to make a payment on my totaled car but then they said I couldn't make a payment that way (even though I was told that I could awhile back). So I thought I had everything figured out... apparently I didn't. So damn frustrating.

No car+high bills+pissed a friend off even though I didn't mean to+waiting for an answer=feel like crying

I'm so tired of this.

I have a pretty good life (it could be a hell of a lot worse) but I'm a good person. I've got compassion for people and yet I'm still sitting here thinking "What next???"

Sometimes I really wish I was already somewhere else. I can't wait to move.

New Things...

Hi. So... um... this is new to me... :) kind of a first buuuut figured I have a tendency to either post things even if nobody reads them so obviously no better way than to start my own blog spot. My mind is constantly running and I've always got something to talk about. Sometimes it's interesting... other times maybe not as much.

Where to begin??... Well here I am. I've got my son... he's my star. Beautiful boy. Mainly it's just us two, but I do live with my mom. I'm the oldest of 8 but 6 of them are my moms. Recently my brother just moved out with his gf who's expecting a baby in March :). So let's see there's a 15 yr old, an 11 yr old, and twins that are going to be 9 soon. Anyhow... I'm pretty much the other parent in the house and I'm okay with that because in the end... all you've got is family. I don't ever want to look back to say I didn't help take care of our family. I'm busy working on my life right now anyway... it's not like it's stopping me from doing my own thing.

Kinda stuck on words right now... I write a lot (and think a lot too) so yeah there will be more up soon.